PEIYUN SECRETLY FILMED MEH DOWN ON MUH DIGICAM! HEHEHEHEHE i tot she take photo nia hahah din realise she is filming me dat stupid ger den it's fun! hahaa took lotsa pics for my report appendices today! tomorrow i off again hahaha den go wilfred hse stay shiok sia

i've been knitting recently again! hahaha n i had iman teach me a new way to knit. kewlie! will try to upload the picture let u all see soon.

HEHEHEHEHHE FINALLY BOUGHT MY DIGICAM TODAE! COLOUR IS NICE, USE IS EASY, GOOOOOOD. somemore u noe wad's better? it's cheap hahah. got it for $280 at simlim. we like walked into so many shops and have been given so many different quote of prices man! ultimately end up getting a Fujifilm FinePix A205s that has 2 megapixel and 3x optical/2.5 digital zoom. not bad liao den the pictures take liao all quite nice and the flash is good. ehheehhee me n sano n wilfred n iman had lotsa fun takin pictures! fun fun fun! hehehehehe check them out here LINKS REMOVED we spent the whole day out together from meeting up in bugis till going to simlim and then back to slack our time off at wilfred's place! hehehehe nice. so happy about getting my digicam today.

uploaded some new photos. check them out here.
Family
Me and Wil

my god ma passed away. it happened just yesterday.
wilfred had food poisoning today and fell sick.

haiz

lotsa stuff happened.
anyway, about my report, it's almost done. collected most of the appendix materials and photocopied them already. the rest is up to printing and also i'm trying to get my digicam first to take the pics i want for my appendices. i finished most of the report except executive summary and part 3, conclusion and recommendation of the report. write up on past company almost completed too.

wilfred wanna get new hp haha and me? can't wait to get my digicam. tomorrow me n sano n iman going dwn to simlim to check out the digicam models personally so dat i can make my decisions better and faster. i wanna get the report faster over and done with so dat i can juz relac and enjoy work and my own personal time better without having to worry about the stupid report.

been so tired with work lately. both my birthday and 2nd year annivasary happens to fall on a sunday. sux. can't get proper off. they allowed my birthday to take off but not on the day of my anni. wadever. i'll either get my off after re-requesting, or i'll get mc. no matter wad i'm getting that day off from work. too bad if they didn't approve it. it'll be last minute headache for them not me. basket. inflexible schedule. sucks.

::overplayed songs::
LIV - Are You Alive?
tamaki koji - aibo

both songs are new and very nice hehehe one buy young nice lookin manabu oshio and the other is a cute old man.

have been so tired recently that i haven't got much time to blog.
went down to JE to get some photocopied materials which i left behind from work yesterday and cos i put make up today, alicia was like staring into my face saying something looks different before she realised i had make up hahaha (i put little bit only to cover up pimples) den went on dwn to photocopy more stuff. i bought infernal affairs (one) from the vcd shop dwnstair and guess waD? when i abt to make payment the sensor rang and the shop assistant went out the door lookin angry. apparently some stupid girls stole some stuff and scooted off!! hahahaha suay sia. after i'm done, i went to JP to wait for wilfred to finish work. went up to wintertime to pass peiyun the file and i'm gone. had big mac for lunch. i haven't eaten the whole day hahaha den walked around the value shop. when wil came i bought some drinks before heading to the bus stn. u noe the value shop in jp selling 4 packets of potato chips for one dollar leh! so tempted to buy hahahaha when wil came we go dwn to basement the song brothers shop to check out the digicam i want but dun haf the model sia so sian. hahahaah song bro also hav another outlet in sim lim mah i tot mite haf... basket. jere's fathers shop. that sim lim outlet den got the model i want. sian rite. so me n wil went back up and left for home. i spent some good time over at his house. cooked maggi for him. nw his hair short short like chip munk so cute. i added lotsa ppl into frenster todae and guess wad? my PRI sch fren found me. hahahah she changed alot sia make me so stunned. last time owaz use ruler or bullet beat me nw so chio so 'womanly' hahahahah nearly fainted on the spot. i saw the pic kero didi send me! he n his gf hahaha his gf quite pretty leh! talk abt didi, i miss ko_chan ah~ haha and i called kelvin kor yest n todae to ask him help me check out the digicam models... hope get ans soon den can faster do my report. i finished abt 70% of it already -____- i think if pat n shai reads dis they'll want to beat me cos like....... um i abit kiasu lah. ok den oh shit still hav to write up about previous co. damn sianz. mr lin haven't reply me about the format.. sano wrote something in my frenster testimonial which made me reallie touched hehehe nearly teared. okok i nid rest O_____O buey tahan liao muz slp. nitez all!

damn. have been caught for using angelfire to post my pictures. nw they disable my account and all my pics became empty boxes with crosses. fuck them all.

bad mood todae.

damn sad.

hope i'll be better tml.

i juz wanna be with wilfred right nw..... i miss him so much.

the day haven't been going too well for me today... everything sucked. onli when i get to c him and we haf fun, i'll noe everything is fine. i miss him so much it made me so bad mood. i havent managed to talk much with him today. and that made me feel even worse. fuck GWW. why make me work on weekends. stripping off my precious time with wilfred. fuck them. i've been quiet for most of the day or rather throughout the day. cried and cried and dennis tot i had rashes on my face cos it's so red. i'm juz plain skin-sensitive dat i cry, i become v red. I CRIED. so? big deal. no one cared. wil wasn't there. i needed him the most but he had no time for me. he had his friends and soccer. i'm left alone to deal with my overwhelming emotions. it's so unbearable u noe? who can understand how it feels to be helpless? when you need someone there to reassure you that everything is fine and your paranoias are unneeded. i don't want to fall into depression ever again. it sucked. i want it out of my life. go away!

life doesn't suck. today sucked.

finally back at home! hahahah after 10 days of spending at wilfred's house. i kinda miss him actually hahahaha dad missed me too! "stalked" me at the bus stop when i came back home frm work hahahaha i am nw checking out the prices for digicams cos i intend to buy one for my personal use, fulfilling my wish list HEHE and but of course, use it to take photos to be added into my SIP report. geez. juz read the guidelines. damn irritating can? but at least it gives me more directions. i juz nid to get more time and lift my ass off to start working. why i nid time? cos when i start i can't stop so i think i'll nid plenty of time to start off.

suddenly checked my friendster account and had lotsa ppl requesting to be added and adding me in. frm only 5 frens i end up having 20 frens now haha all old sch mates man.

i feel so tired man. how i wish i can b hugging wil to slp again tonite hahaha.... wil's dad got stung by 50 BEES! dat was a day before's news. then got warded for a day. hurz. damn sian i juz realised my bdae and my 2nd year anni with wil lands on sundays. I GOTTA WORK ON SUNDAYS DAMNIT! *burns dwn GWW*

gee can't wait to get my digicam hahahaha den can snap lotsa lotsa pics. hehehehehe *evil plot to snapping wilfred naked pic and post in blog* woohoo!

ok i admit, after not being home and not blogging for so long i'm abit cranky.

i'll go rest now and type out some of the report stuff and listen to my oda kazusama songs! whee! ciaoz!

hehz was asking iman when she had her first kiss. thinking back, i had mine 2 years ago, which was when i was 18 years old. it was on the 22nd of novemeber and i remembered it very clearly. why? because it's the day when i celebrated my birthday leaving no option but to allow wil to kiss me hahahaha i like rejected him so mani times before dat day. we dated for at least 3 weeks first and he asked countless times. first attempt was in a ktv on our first date. well, wil was no shy sort. straightaway hold hand and everything den not shy (THICK SKINNED) den first date onli tried to kiss me. siao. heng i never take microphone smack him.

why did he manage to kiss me on 22nd? cos he say is my bdae. kinda hard to reject so end up being "cornered" at a bus stop. WIF PPL. wha lau eh

then on my way back in the bus i was thinking about the good times i had with my cousin. Bryan. well i've alwayz showed alittle more favouritism towards him and treated him like my brother. we're very close. bathed together when we were a kid, held hands, played and jokingly fought with each other, he hates veg and i dun like fish/seafood stuff so we owaz share our food, at restaurants we would order two dishes and share both so we'll have half of wad each other had. last time, we like to bully his sis together *opps* and our relatives are alwayz commenting how close we are cos like in the car we'll just lie against each other n fall asleep. when we're together we're never too far away from each other. he shares his secrets with me while only him in my family knows about wilfred besides his sis who happen to stumble upon the truth. many a times people think the way we two behave is very strange and far beyond what normal cousins would behave and guess what? wilfred is jealous of him!! hahahaha cos like he thinks i'm adnormally close to my cousin. doesnt matter though cos he's still my dear ol` couz. seeing him grow up is kinda strange too actually. like noe him as a lil boi and u noe how much a boi can change esp during puberty so it was like.... kinda hard dealing with the rapid changes in terms of looks and built. only fear was that our relationship might drift but guess it's not happening yet haha when he first started dating i actually got worried!? haha cos like scared the "girl" snatch my dear bryan away. machiam possesive mother sia.

tml i am staying over at wilfred's place already. will be back next friday.

haiz. anyway, good things to rejoice about. this coming thursday is me and wilfred's one year eleventh month annivasary! can't wait till our second year annivasay comes along! heehee *rejoice*

and oh yes, wil stay i'm forever thinking about FOOOOD! hehehehe well half my brain is dedicated to thinking about food hahahaha

JE: Jurong East
JP: Jurong Point
(R)/R: Rest Day

*Highlighted portion: staying over at wil's*

summer gif

discontinued my japanese studies.

after much emotional struggles of course. i reallie enjoyed taking the class and wads' more, i've been at it for so long already. it's like ending a four year long relationship or something. it sux. but i hav not much of a choice. i have no time to study for the exams and stupid job's HR mgr dun wanna gimme full day off on saturdays. i'll be so tired n i nid to type report... guess i hav to make a sacrifice.

dun get me wrong. i did not GIVE UP my japanese course. i'm gonna continue with it next year. definitely. start frm the second term (may) of the same level. and i intend to take up conversation course and business course. ah and sharon quit her job too. haiz. heard her mum's in the hospital. something rather serious and she gotta stay in the hospital with her. so she quit. den refuse to answer my HR mgr's calls. hur.

today got a very irritating customer. we close shop at 9:30pm normally. they shop until 10PM!!! den go. nw at wil's hse but he watching soccer in the rm with his bro and it finishes onli at 12. irritating.

oh yes, forgot to mention. new guy supervisor quit his job already. LOLZ

stupid rain. so big. spoil my mood. life seems to sux. esp with the reports. the stupid schedule. stupid HR mgr. stupid jap class which i can't continue....

everything.

only thing i have... friends whom i talk to rarely. folks. wilfred.

sux.

finally i got over the incident which stripped off the trust i had in wilfred. now i'm loving him the same or if not, more than every. i've learnt to appreciate everything he has done for me and came to realise how unreasonable i've been at one point in our relationship. emotions and illogical thinking took over. now i think he's the most considerate and sweetest bf i could ever ask for and having been steady for nearly two years, he has never scolded or raise his voice at me. never. thinking of dat it makes me guilty as i've countless times raised my voice at him when i'm stressed out. i've tried and more or less successfully gotten rid of dat habit. by comparing your partner with another is useless and meaningless. there's always a more desirable action by another person as compared to your partner and by comparing, you'll never be satisfied and underappreciate what your partner have truly done for you. i've never compared wilfred with anyone. i learnt to appreciate what he has done for me and realised how much he loves me and gone the extra mile to just find time to spend it with me and no matter how unreasonable some of the timing might be, i really wanted to meet him, he will come n meet me. i tend to get consumed in self pity about how bad a situation i'm in. frankly speaking, he is in no better situation than i am and should also deserve consolation from me. humans are just like dat huh? tend to think too much of ourselves and overlook the feelings of others.

now i feel as if i have no life. in fact, i am forced into a situation where i might consider discontinuing my japanese language course first. but i'll bid my time and consider more first. my workplace, does not allow me to take a full day off for saturdays. so the deal now is dat i have to come back to work after class. i work 10.5 hours a day everyday and only have about one day off every week. i'm feeling very very tired, and i'm stressed out about my work and what's worse, wilfred is back into his ns work and he has to sleep early and gets back hm before me. our timing almost could be described as "totally clashed" and we would've practically no time to meet up or spend time with each other.

well, roads are paved by men and when there's a will there's a way. we are willing to sacrifice time on certain stuff and come up with a win-win situation where i stay over on certain dates dat facilitates me going over to work faster and him being able to see me and at least, we still spend about 1 over hour with each other everyday. it juz sux a little having to wake up with him not beside me in the bed. being alone after waking up is not exactly a very pleasant feeling. our timing is all messed up and every once in awhile, life juz likes to play a trick on us both and throw us a joke like this. being stripped off of our time is not exactly very kind. but at least it made our r/s stronger and we'll pull through.

my SIP (student internship programme) Report is getting on my nerve. so much to write about, so much to put in. i hate uncertainty and i hate stress.